December 2013

Ohhh, my blog,
I can't be sorry enough for abandoning you for so long time.

I've changed.
I don't know what people think of me now.
But mostly, the comments are,
"Jye, why are you becoming such an Emo person?"
" What are all those quotes, statuses about?"

Honestly, I figured about that some time ago.
I don't know what has gone wrong. I don't know which part have I done wrongly.
I have no idea.
All I could think is" Is this a part of growing up?"
" Can I survive this?"
"Will I get through this emo part?"
" Does being in love make me into this?"

I spot the difference when sometime I reviewed my past stautuses in facebook, (thanks to that timeline thing)
and when i reviewed the old photos.
Ohh yes, I used to be so happy, that smile..I've lost it.

Now I'm trying to find my happiness again.
I know I'll be happy again.

Now that final's around the corner. 
My focus now is to nail all these subjects and do well in final.
I know they all say, things will always be better.
I really hope so. Now it's almost the end of 2013. 
Time to make a New year Resolutions.

Have Faith <3

Write again soon. =)
I'll not abandon you again, my dearly blog.
Thanks for being here. Thanks for everyone who cares about me.
=)

Tear-inducing Matters

I am a born baby girl who cries so easily...
Well, I just am the one.

I don't know the reasons, but I do always wish I could be stronger.
I cry over a lot of reasons, some are weird resons.

❤   I cry when I think about my Mom. Missing her and thinking abut what is she doing now.

   My mom was diagnosed for having kidney failure last October. She was unbelievable and so depressed by the fact. She cried everyday, thinking she could not survive this. She is the strongest woman I have ever met in my life. Now that she got through the hardest time, she goes back to the busy business woman life. Everytime I think about what she is doing, my eyes get teary, my nose gets sour, and chill in my lungs. I really miss her now. She said she might be visiting me yeaterday, but she could not make it eventually. My world gets darker for the moment.

❤   I cry when the car gets hurt a little. I cry when it requires expensive car repair.

❤   I cry when I watch a sad movie. Lovers fall apart, death of someone, sad love story, and many many other scenes.

❤   I cry when someone I love break my heart, jealousy of the one I love, change of people attitude towards me, fighting with somone I love.

❤   I cry when I feel terribly sympathy to animals, people, beggars, the homeless, sad news, earthquake, natural disasters, wars and so on.

❤   I cry when I've got miserable. Whole bunch of assignments, tough subjects, hard examinations, got bullied, and when everything goes wrong.

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So I think I have listed enough... I think I have a natural born heart made of glass. It is so fragile and vulnerable.

I want to be strong! Sometimes, when I feel like I couldn't help but crying, I read some inspirational quotes or videos to make me feel better and stand up. I think about what I have done and what I've gone through, convincing myself that this is nothing compare to what I have gone through. And there's a voice that telling myself not to cry although it still hurts. 

The voice is what makes me strong and help me through.

I could never afford to lose this voice inside of me. _____

Old Girlfriends

I don't know and I am not sure what has happened to me these few days.
I feel so exhausted and I look like wilthered.
not as blossom as I was before.

It's the results of staying up for several nights preparing for a mid-sem test.
And it turned out that I did not so well in the test.

Arghh.... Sigh...
I need to stop thinking about it and focus to the present and future.

Last night, I had a hanging out dinner with Sabrina and Wan Ting.
They are my old friends.
We realized that we have been knowing each other for 7 years.
Things were so crazy when we became friends.

Hanging out in Safari, the one and only club in Genting, flirting with guys,
learning street shuffle, and so on. and yeah..
No doubt I was so good in Suffling.
We could laugh until we drop on our way because 
someone was making a terrible joke.
That would be Dylan. He could make an ordinary scene into a bombing joke!!!!!
Seriously, it was such fun being around him.
We could laugh all day!

Another event that was unforgetable was,_________________________

the day when Dylan and Sabrina were stopping me from seeing a guy,____

who was about to break up with me._____________________________

I know it was so silly. But I could never forget the moment.____________

Not the moment with the guy.__________________________________

But moment with them._______________________________________

Dylan was doing and saying all he could to stop me from going up.______

And I remember that look he had when I said I had to go up.__________

and later I realized that Dylan had been waiting for me _______________

all the time when I was up, talking with the stupid guy._______________

Oh my God, what had I done!

and I just cried. He brought me to see Sabrina and we went to this Koraoke Capsules.

and he sang "分手快乐“ for me.

I didn't sing that day. I was crying until the next morning.

Anyway, now Dylan is a thousand miles away from us, and for years.
Some of us has changed.
Good or bad ways, they have.
 People change, poeple growing up their own ways.
There's nothing to be bothered of.

I am grateful that we got this far.
And it's amazing how we got this far, what we have gone through, what we have seen.

Making fun

Hmm okay.. Write again =)

Life

Time flies...
As much as I am living every second of it, time still slips without realization.

It's the middle of the semester.
One mid sem test has passed, and I think I just did terribly on it.
Now, nothing I could do more other than praying and hoping.

A year ago, things were so different.
Different place, differant people around.
Now I still have to stay up studying, but the feeling is so different.

In kolej, when you were staying up, you looked out the window from the books,
you saw people's lights on, people burrying their heads on their books.
In the study rooms, you saw familiar faces, you discussed your problems with close coursemates.
Your friends told you which part you should be concentrate.

All those moments only has become the things that I cherished.
Yeah, we always hear that they say, "look forward."

that's what i am doing, and I hope everyday is wonderful for me.

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Falling in Love

Falling in love

This phrase is so common that I believe everyone has been there.
but how is the ending, is it happy or sad or painful.
It varies.

So I have not got my happy ending.
For me, in love with someone is always killing me.
It takes me a lot of strengths and courage.

It consumes time and eats up energy.
I hope things will turn out to be wonderful and in the best shape =) =)

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Friday ain't a Friday for me

It's Friday for everyone... Boom!!!!!

Smile =)

There's a BUT coming...
But it's not really a Friday for me although I feel so Friday

Tomorrow I'll be having 8am class. 8AM!! 8AM!!
8AM, can you believe it?

Arghh this will be torturing for the whole semester.
Anyway, I guess I'll just have to deal with it and get use to it.

Because I think this will be continuing for maybe 2 semester?
Yeah I sincerely hope I could graduate on time.

Tomorrow will be class of Applied Mechanics and Research Methodology.
Actually I am quite looking forward to it.
I am going to rock this semester.

I am going to study as smart as I could be, be as diligent as possible, and also pass the exam as colourful as possible!

Write again =)

Jay Chou

Have you listened to Jay Chou's new album?

<十二新作>

I love most of the songs!!!
Listening to his song, his voice, I feel like Jay is so near to me...
Beside me, singing to me =P =P

Yeah, I must be dreaming.... Ahhhh...Grrrr...
明明就很好听啊。。。
I can't accept person who does not like Jay.
No kidding...

Last week, when I spent my CNY holidays at home,
my sister and brothers all except my biggest Bro,
kept humming his new songs!

And the funny part was when my sis used her own style, trying to mimic the way Jay did in the last part of <明明就>.
The part he sings 明明就  明明就 明明就。。。

Haha... I bet you can imagine, if you have already listened to his songs...
Ahhh...Mazz...Ennngg...  right?

任音乐谁领风骚  我却只为  你  折腰
杰伦, 谁说你的手语我听不懂？

Haha...

Angpows

It feels great that I got a number of Angpows in the factory...
I am thankful that I am not married!!!

Because I like th feeling of getting Angpow from aunties and uncles that 
even though they are not close to me,
even though they are not my relatives,
they gave me Angpows gladly. =)

Because I think relatives give you Angpow because they have to do that
out of tradition.
In fact, I know they don't really want to know about me...

Happy Chinese New Year to all my friends and family.
Have a prosperous, healthy, happy Snake Year 2013!!!
It's the 10th day of CNY,
Enjoy the rest of the days everyone!

A Kiss

29th January 2012

I got a kiss on my cheek!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG... he kissed me!!!!!!!

Ali, he kissed me =) =)
He is 4 years old and he is so lovely...
Feels so great because this is the first time a kid literally kisses you..

No one has done that to me ever!!!!

So sweeeeeettttttt!

Curious Friday

It's Friday... Should I say:" Thank God, it's Friday?"

Arghh... Jay Chou's new song <爱你没差〉affects my mood so much..

Darn...Why do you always make me emotional with your song?
 I spend 12 years loving you, Jay Chou!!!! 
Since I was in my early teen, until my teenage crush, and now.
And I'm so thankful that I'm not alone. I have my brothers and sisters loving him with me.
 I really love his song especially this one and <明明就>

Dedicating this song to my brothers and sister, Mom and Dad...and everyone who likes and appreciates this song, (Thankful)

Things change all the time. 
Jay is a more mature man.
I'm no longer the same girl. My friends change.
The guys I had crush changed. My brothers changed.
My feelings changed.
My blog changed.


I hate when I crush into someone.
Because it sucks and nothing has ever worked out.
It's always in a single way.
Sometimes I wonder how did two person fall into couple so easily.
And mine has always had to get through the hard way.
Eventually, all I got is zero.
And yes, don't ever believe into Fairy Tales.

That's right

Birthday Celebration of the Little Twins

18th January 2013.

Have been busy recently and I'm feeling sick now with a little sore throat.
I have not sick for a very long time, so I guess it's a little signal from my body.

Well, 18th January, Friday evening, I went to my friend's twin brother and sister's birthday.
They are 4 years old, and they are a little too cute. 

Their house is in Block A, Juta Mines Condo which I have been staying here since September last year.
I was a little awkward when Mudher asked me to go to the birthday celebration.
I have not experienced birthday celebration in someone's house for so so long time.
Until I couldn't remember when was the last time. 

So... then I went. His brother's name is Ali and sister's name Rekah.
They dressed in decent lovely clothes. Rekah was like a princess.

First, it was a little awkward because I don't speak Arabic ( I would love to learn). Things got better though.
I got to say, they loved to take photos.

Is it only me who thinks they are cute?

Rekah, the little princess

Ali, the famous cutie =P

The birthday cake

I like the bread...

Check this out! She has blond hair!! And yeah.. they are original!

 

Why did you look at me?

The family =)

And then, cake lighting moment...

The big brother of all

Happy birthday cuties

And then it continues...He is photogenic..

Modeling for Coca-cola

The Chicken

Owh....lovely

Eye Trick Haha =)

Strike a post!

And then, they were dancing, <Gangnam Style>, and some Iraqi songs which I had no idea about. They made me move with them too... 

They were dancing, Joget-joget

The friendly mother

Guarding her cake

After meal, there was diasater... They were throwing candy to each other, to me... =(
And of course, there was balloon moment, which they started to 'stab' the balloons...

 ___________Party ends __________

I'm thankful that they invited me.
I had fun, real fun... =P

And I hoped I didn't say or do anything wrong.
And I hope this 2013 brings happiness, lucks, health and the best for all of us.